Hello friends,
I'm sorry I have nothing to post,but I need to vent,and writing it down feels better for me. Hope you don't mind,if you don't want to read it,it's ok,you'll still be my friend.
As time goes by my hubby and I are getting more nervous,anxious,fed up and every other emotion possible times 2. So yesterday I emailed my co-ordinator to see if there had been any changes on the list or any news or what not. So she emailed me back today saying that there was no change,still don't know how long it will be and like me, she is hoping soon.
And she adds, Do you have any drug benefit package,yes I do,it's an Ontario benefit package which I will need once the tx is done. So that's a good thing,and then she goes on by saying,there has been a change with the flights. Now, if it happens during the night that i get the call,they will arrange for an air ambulance,at first they had told me that my hubby and I could get on at not cost. Well now she says that they will ask me if we can afford to pay our flight there...duh!!!
I'm sorry but I don't have that kind of money except on a credit card. So I see that this will be very stressful on both of us.
And another she said was that if I get the call during the day,they want me to take a commercial flight. Well we live in a smaller town,which there's only like 3 flights a day going to Toronto,then I would have to transfer in Toronto to London,now will there be connections???
So right now,my head wants to pop open,I just want to scream,I just want to give up!!! If only I can get this all over and done with. I think the surgery will be less painful than all this stress!!!
Why is God not answering all these prayers???? I would never hurt a fly,why did this happen to me??? Like my Mother would tell me, God only gives you what you can handle. Well right now, I can't handle this,maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
Thanks for letting me vent, and have a wonderful day!
Hugs,Diane
